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Friday, April 30th, 2010
2:19 pm
life has been treating me fairly well as of late... obviously it has its ups and downs. but can i please say "its about damn time"

went to vegas... next thurs(may 6th) i leave for boston.. memorial day weekend road trip to christie, minneapolis, eau claire. and a possible wisco dells stop for some fudge (i cant help myself)

met a new guy, blah blah blah. seems nice but so does everyone at first.

its a beautiful day out! time to stop cleaning and start doing shit.
Sunday, January 3rd, 2010
5:29 pm
i need to get this off my chest. i am in no way trying to cause drama. it just needs to be said.

i cannot believe that you added that girl, pretty much the second after you broke up with me. if you wanted to hurt my feelings, you fuckin did it. i thought at that point oh maybe we could date again maybe things would work them selves out. but hell no, now i know what is most important to you in your life. and you cannot at all talk shit on me asking you to not be friends with one girl. you asked me to stop being friends with 3 specific guys, and i did it. no questions asked. because being in a relationship 100% is about not being selfish. so you give me crap about me asking you to not be friends with rhett when clearly she is someone to feel nervous about. concidering when i first found out you had been talking to her i also found out that you had initially lied to me and said she was a boy. then. when i called you out on it and asked you to no longer speak with her. you simply changed her name in your phone book so you could go against what i asked. one simple request. the only one i made in the entire relationship really.

it was like fucking pulling teeth trying to get you out of the house. i didnt even ask you to spend money on me. hell i didnt even ask you to chip in for groceries until the last month of our relationship. id ask to go to the bar. youd say "lets go to the movies" id say ok and then youd change your mind. and also. this is like once a week. you have more money than i do (seeing as how you live at home and work full time.) and you couldnt even get out of the house once a week not for dinner. not for a movie. not for the bar. and i dont ask for much. its not like i ever said hey take me to bacchus for dinner. it was. hey lets go to oakland trat and split a pizza. i never said hey take me out for champagne. i said hey lets go to the bar for a few. ill buy the first round..

now lets get to this, well call it "cheapness" had i KNOWN that you never gave up smoking weed like you said, maybe i would have realized why u were always broke, but i just thot you were tying up loose ends. hell i even thought you might be "saving up" yeah im fucking stupid i get it. but you lied to me for over a year about smoking weed. real cool. and on that subject...that also turns in to you lying about whom you were hanging with. justin. i asked you so many times to hang out with kailie, justin, and i. we could all go out together. and you said no because u didnt care for justin. now i realize is because you didnt want justin to say something about smoking weed together.

the last 6 months we were together you treated me like shit. you made me feel bad to be the person i am. you questioned everything i did. worse than my parents. you tried to make me feel shit for being on social networking sights like facebook and twitter. you questioned things i did, you acted as if i was lying to you.. you were a bad boyfriend, unfortunately you were the best i have had yet. but you werent okay. at all.

now. all you do is go out. thats so fucked up. your constantly on social networking sites. you added that girl and when i called you out on it. all you could do was not even say words to me, you picked on me for my hair, and for typing fast? what the fuck. AND you didnt even do it with words. you did it with gifs. im glad were done. i feel good. i didnt cry, i wasnt sad. i was relieved that the arguing was over, that i could finally be the person i am again without feeling bad about it.
that is all
Monday, December 28th, 2009
3:02 pm
"If someone's ungrateful and you tell him he's ungrateful, okay, you've called him a name. You haven't solved anything."
Thursday, November 19th, 2009
12:11 am
long time ago, and now
Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
11:10 pm
L A S T:
01. Last Cigarette: after work
03. Last Cry: yesterday
04. Last Library Book: long time ago, but i still have it
05. Last Movie Seen In a Theater: duece biggalo
06. Last Book Read: im reading, requium for a dream. otherwise gossip girls
07. Last Cuss Word Uttered: shit
08. Last Beverage Drank:dr pepper
09. Last Food Consumed: pasta at work
11. Last TV Show Watched: fraiser :/
12. Last Time Showered: earlier today
13. Last Shoes Worn: lacoste flip flops
14. Last CD played: lola ray
15. Last Soda Drank: dr pepper
16. Last Thing Written: schedule
17. Last Words Spoken: im boredd
18. Last Annoyance: parents
19. Last Time Scolded Someone: my manager at work for being a dick to me
20. Last Web Site Visited: lj

B O D Y:
01. Piercings: ears
02. Tattoos: none yet
03. Height: 5'9
04. Shoe size: 8-10
05. Hair color: blonde
06. Siblings: my brother michael. and teresa (lol)

L A S T . . .
01. Movie you rented: clerks, and halloween
02. Movie you bought: i dont remember,
03. Song you listened to: lola ray
04. Song that was stuck in your head: idk
05. CD you bought: mike jones
07. Person you called: idk
08. Person that's called you: co worker
10. Person you were thinking of: silent bob
11. Friend you made: maia

01. You have a crush on someone: um idk. my bf?
02. You wish you could live somewhere else: OMG YES
03. You think about suicide: yes
04. You believe in online dating: gay
05. Others find you attractive: idk?

06. You want more Piercings: yes
07. You drink: yes
08. You do drugs: yes
09. You smoke: yes
10. You like cleaning: depends on what
11. You like roller coasters: no

12. You write in cursive or print: print. and ilove my handwriting

Wednesday, November 18th, 2009
11:55 pm
L A S T:
01. Last Cigarette: a min ago
02. Last Kiss: sunday :(
03. Last Cry: last night
04. Last Library Book: ive owed the library for quite some time
05. Last Movie Seen In a Theater: dragonball
06. Last Book Read: fml: the book... and total feng shui
07. Last Cuss Word Uttered: probably fuck
08. Last Beverage Drank:mtn dew
09. Last Food Consumed: pizza :(
11. Last TV Show Watched: scrubs
12. Last Time Showered: last night
13. Last Shoes Worn: flats
14. Last CD played: currently listening to: modern life is war: outsider
15. Last Soda Drank: mtn dew
16. Last Thing Written: lists, many many lists
17. Last Words Spoken: OW
18. Last Annoyance: neck pain
19. Last Time Scolded Someone: probably someone, at some point today
20. Last Web Site Visited: isohunt.com

B O D Y:
01. Piercings: ears, septum
02. Tattoos: some
03. Height: 5'9
04. Shoe size: 8-9
05. Hair color: brown
06. Siblings: my brother michael

L A S T . . .
01. Movie you rented: problem child off of ondemand
02. Movie you bought: no clue. bootleg that shit
03. Song you listened to: on broken wings: as you speak
04. Song that was stuck in your head: this one im listening to now
05. CD you bought: dj shadow
07. Person you called: i usually dont make phone calls
08. Person that's called you: danny<3
10. Person you were thinking of: danny
11. Friend you made: idk

01. You have a crush on someone: danny
02. You wish you could live somewhere else: nope
03. You think about suicide: not anymore
04. You believe in online dating: no
05. Others find you attractive: im sure they do

06. You want more Piercings: no
07. You drink: yes
08. You do drugs: nope
09. You smoke: yes
10. You like cleaning: as long as theres good music on
11. You like roller coasters: no

12. You write in cursive or print: print.
Thursday, August 13th, 2009
7:03 pm
Please vote for my salon on wisn.com's a list. Go to wisn.com click on a-list. And search up iLLustria salon and just click vote. Please do this and help us. Thanks
Monday, August 10th, 2009
11:49 pm
I don't say this a lot on here, or say anything a lot on here.
But I am completely in love with my boyfriend daniel james mackay. I am happy in life and in my career.

Im slowly going through my stuff. I want to get rid of at least half I want to make some space in my house and in my life.

I need a cold shower to cool me down.
I need a hot shower to relax my muscles.
Sunday, August 9th, 2009
3:07 pm
wana know why no one likes you? Because you act like you are 5
Friday, May 22nd, 2009
10:58 am
Probably the most annoying thing about roomates is not being able to pee whenever I choose..

I need to stop feeling like shit. I shud probably go to the doctor, I can't breathe properly and I havwent been able to for like 3 months, I had my period for like 4 weeks. Not sure if it went away or what.

Im really sick of flakey people, sometimes yes, you are a shitty friend, not one person asked me how my exam went, not one person has asked how I've been feeling lately, how things are going with danny.

I need a week long vacation, not some shitty two day thing where like a quarter of it is driving, I need to leave wisconsin, go to the ocean. Someone needs to buy my car so that I can do that.

Monday, May 11th, 2009
1:23 am
I just spend the last few hours mostly thinking. I have come to the conclusion that.

*people that seem cool online/thru chat, arnt in person because they no longer know how to communicate properly because of only talking thru aim.

*people that are real don't necessairly need to spend their time doing interesting and cool sounding things 24hrs of every day.

*if you can't be happy just being, you have problems.

*I need to go somewhere I have never been before. I need to be able to get lost.

*I need to no longer be sick

*im glad im not a stripper
Monday, April 6th, 2009
5:24 pm
my love, my life.
my best friend
my boyfriend.

Tuesday, March 31st, 2009
4:12 pm
So today I had to get a filling. She numbed me up and started like a third of the way thru I started feeling pain so she gave me more. Still hurt. She said I can't turn back now and 25% of peoples teeth don't get numb from where or wherenot the nerves are. I felt everything. I was screaming and crying it was the worst pain of my life.
I nver want to go to the dentist again. And I have one more tooth to go. :(
Thursday, March 19th, 2009
10:18 pm
Step off
Monday, March 16th, 2009
11:08 pm
nothing in life can really make u mad when ur listening to the chordettes
Monday, March 2nd, 2009
11:12 pm
Feeling sick to my stomach.

I saw courtney niemczyk at mega media exchange when I was with danny. I turned red in the face I swear from unresolved feelings of hatred, and spite, and just overall being hurt. Its silly, but she had a big impact on my life. Weather it was being friends for so long and it just ending because she became "more popular" than I. Or finding out that she craptalked me to everyone else in my school with things that weren't true so she could "keep me for herself". Or just the rude things said back and forth. Needless to say, it was kinda weird having a civil conversation.

On the brighter side of things. I will never get sick of intrudoucing danny as my boyfriend. I will never get sick of feeling complete. I will never get sick of going to bed happy everynight.

I love life.
Thursday, February 19th, 2009
11:04 am
i hope u get run over by a bus
Tuesday, February 17th, 2009
8:38 am
putting a new belt on my new car today.

my dad said that i have weird fucking luck to have the same mechanical problem to both cars. i asked if there was something i was doing wrong? he said just weird luck.

i may open up the door and take a peek at the window as well, ive been looking on bimmerforums.com a lot and seeing what little things i can do to get this thing in tiptop shape.

the problems:
idol control valve, just annoying, not a NEED, its a 250$part, and it is in the middle of EVERYTHING.
passenger window is off track.
have to put cd player in.
2" by 4.5" of rust under the two front doors.

the good:
shiny new black on black 94 bmw.
everything else is trivial, i only care about the heated seats.

danny gave me the most amazing valentines day card, and i cant wait till resident evil 5 comes out were gona buy it together n play it together. we just beat left4dead in 3 days. (half days of gameplay).... were nerds together, i love it.

im downloading "the golden palace" which is the sequal to golden girls, kristina... have you seen it is it good?
Wednesday, February 4th, 2009
1:40 am
new car
love life
new clients
love life
awesome boyfriend
love life
the end.
Thursday, December 25th, 2008
10:24 am
christmas eve
a good start, to a great holiday.

dannys family loved their gifts (from what i could tell) and danny loved his gifts as well..
i am about to go to my parents for brunch, and then dannys grandmothers on his moms side.

last night they took a picture with me and called me their family. it really made me feel super good. more and more i am starting to actually FEEL loved, instead of just being told it and having it feel nice to hear, i can actually feel love radiating from my boyfriend when i am with him, if that makes sense. its good, good shit.

gotta go i wish all of you a merry christmas and happy holidays.

p.s. isnt this holiday supposed to be about giving, not the amount of presents you recieve from people? just a thought.
Wednesday, December 10th, 2008
4:39 pm
oh goddddddddd
Friday, November 28th, 2008
12:31 pm
i.......................................................am so hungry.
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